1) I am completely and totally socially inept. I don't understand social interaction at all. I don't mind going to parties as long as I know someone, but try to introduce me to new people...most of the time I'll give them a blank stare.
2) I've had a headache on and off for the past three weeks. I can't decide whether it's from school, sleep deprivation or just general life stress.
3) I have a presentation on October 11th. I'm petrified. I hate giving presentations because I'm sure that someone will stand up and yell, "You have NO idea what you're talking about." Which is true. I have no idea what's going on.
4) I didn't realize how much I missed home until I went back to Oakville on Friday. I missed my couch, my bed, my mommy and daddy, my cats, the way my laundry smells, my sheets, my glorious pillow, the hardwood floors and the water pressure in the shower.
5) I am caught in the middle of a group of friends right now. It breaks my heart. They are all so stubborn and proud...unwilling to compromise and see things from the other person's perspective. I feel like I am being forced to choose, and I refuse to do that.
6) I am exhausted lately but have problems sleeping. Although I was out like a light last night...maybe stealing blankets and bed space from someone helps me sleep better at night?
7) We have a dishwasher. You have no idea how happy this makes me. I don't particularly mind doing dishes, but I find that they are a waste of my life.
8) I've realized that I am a jealous person. It's not a good trait. I am working on it...it's slow going but I think I've made improvement.
9) Someone told me that I smile and giggle a lot more lately. It's because I am happy now.
10) I can only make decisions when they don't affect somebody else. I'm scared I might make somebody unhappy. I don't like making people unhappy.
11) I respond well to boundaries and short-term goals. Just tell me what you like and don't like and I'm cool with that. Don't play games with me and leave me guessing. I hate that shit.
12) I find that my obsessive-compulsive side is coming out a bit more now. I'm a little nuts lately. I actually make my bed the EXACT same way everyday. The way I fold the sheet, where I put the pillow while I make my bed, the way the pillows are positioned...I have it down to a fine art. My shower routine is the same everyday. I like routine a little too much I think.
13) People are pissing me off a lot more lately. The stupidity that some people possess amazes me. And yes, I realize that sometimes I say stupid things....but I am not stupid. I am just innocent and naive sometimes. I also do not pay attention to what is going on in the world around me.
14) I have absolutely no idea what to be for Hallowe'en. I don't know why this is bothering me because it is relatively far away. But for some reason it's causing me stress.
15) I just spent a lot of money on clothes I don't need. But they made me happy, so they're worth it.
2 comments:
Just an FYI,
I never ever expect you to make a decision between friends. Be friends with whoever you want to be friends with. But don't think that because I need to get something off my chest I am telling you to not be friends with someone. It's just me voicing my opinions and frustrations in life. And I go to you to talk about them because you're my friend and the only one who gets it.
I do see the other side of the story, and I know I am headstrong. But I'm tired of all the crap lately and am just giving up.
I'm sick of it, tired of it and I just don't care anymore.
So don't pick, I don't care, and never wanted you to.
I've been getting headaches too, and so has my mom! Maybe it's in the air. Fuckin pollution.
And a little routine is healthy. It keeps you on track and organized, dont let it bother you. Focus on the fact that you're a happy girl now. That news makes me happy :)
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