My Rant for the Day...

I hate being told what to do all the time. And I'm so sick of being guilt-tripped into doing things that I don't want to do. There's a reason I don't want to do it and no, you are NOT entitled to know that reason. It's my business. Get out of it.

I am feeling constrained. I get like this every once in awhile. I feel like I need to scream and run and just let everything out. My frustration is making me anxious, worried and extremely bitchy.

People are annoying me WAY more than usual. The eye-rolling has reached a pinnacle. My friend said something so incredibly STUPID the other day that I just had to walk away in order to not yell, "are you fucking serious?" at her. I honestly just don't understand how people can be so stupid sometimes. It baffles me. Does nobody have ANY common sense anymore?

I am tired of people assuming that they know me. Thinking that they can just know all my secrets, my likes and dislikes and they somehow magically know me. You don't. You probably never will.

Stop treating me like a child. When I want to be cuddled and babied, I will let you know. You may then treat me like a child.

Sometimes I just want to grab you and yell. Make you see how ridiculous you are being. Because you ARE ridiculous sometimes. It breaks my heart that you think that and that they made you think that. They are ridiculous too. They definitely need to get over themselves.

I am so tired of my own insecurities. I am tired of looking in the mirror and hating everything I see. I'm sick of hating my body, I'm sick of it. Yet I cannot accept my body for what it is. I am tired of hating myself.

I actually think that I hate you. I need to let that go otherwise it will eat me up inside.

I'm tired of the secrets, the lies and the competition. I don't care if you hate me. I don't like you that much either. Don't pretend to be my friend when you're actually telling me lies.

It's not you that I don't trust. It's them.

I don't want anymore expectations. I am tired of being disappointed and letting down others. Don't tell me you can do something when you can't. Please don't lie to me anymore, my heart can't take it.

I just want to scream.