fugly

Ugh. I had high expectations for yesterday, and it SO didn't pan out. I hate it when that happens. It makes me all depressed and like, "Why me? Why didn't this happen?" and I hate getting all whiny and baby-ish like that. Boo. I'm so not cool right now because I'm all mopey and wondering what happened to my high-expectations day. I think I need to start getting more sleep because I've kind of been like this for two days now, and it's definitely not from 'female problems' so I wonder what's wrong with me. I'm actually annoying the crap out of myself.

I think it's kind of because they didn't immediately offer me a job after I did that stupid gym tour, so now I'm all questioning my self-worth and confidence. I hate it when something so small can just totally zap away all the fake confidence that you've built up. But she said they'd call me on Friday, so I'm still really hoping that I get the job because I want it so bad. But maybe I want it TOO bad and just looked kind of desperate...who knows.

I have just that UGHHHHHH feeling where you feel so fat and fugly and disgusting and lack all self-confidence. Also, haven't been feeling too good for the past couple of days, maybe have a stomach thing. Who knows.

I'm going to the gym. They say endorphins make you happy...so let's see if that theory is right.